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            I was a geek during my youthful days, that’s why I haven’t experience falling in love. Once I finished college, I went for a total make-over to change my image and start my new career. I cut my long wavy hair and change it into bob-cut straight brown hair. I also change the way I dress, from jerseys and jeans to fancy dresses. I am now working as the chief editor of a famous fashion magazine in Japan. No one ever recognized me even my colleagues from the past when we see each other on some party.  They would always approach me and befriend with me but they didn’t know my old name Takeshi Kei is now Inoo Kei.

            There are times that I’ll visit some clubs to look for love. Yeah, I have everything I wanted but someone to love. Surely, there are bachelors looming around me during parties and work but all they wanted was my body not my heart. I know it sounds like a slut if I look for love on clubs but that’s one of my experiments. Although I entertain some guys on the club, I still haven’t given my virginity to anyone. I just kiss them and they kiss back but nothing follows that as I left them immediately.

            Another night at a club, I sat at one of the stool while listening to the crazy music playing. The blue mini dress I wore looked much shorter when I sat and revealed my long legs.

“Hawaian whiskey” I ordered but someone placed a glass of white wine beside my hand. I froze a little feeling the cold drink. I raised a brow and looked at the guy who placed it that sat beside me.

“Alone again tonight?” he casually asked while smiling

“Again? Have you been watching me all this time?” I chuckle and drink on the glass

“You could say I have my eyes on you” he sipped then placed his glass on the table. I nodded.

“Ne, do you know someone I can love?” I suddenly asked while playing with the glass on my hand.

“You don’t need to look for someone, you can have me” he reached for my chin with a flirty look.

“Yeah right. All men have said that but no one really has it” I rolled my eyes

“It? You mean love?” he chuckled and took my glass and placed it on the table. I looked at him curiously.

“Then let me give you love” he pulled me towards one of the room, I didn’t struggle but I made sure that the door is unlock. He let go of my hand and he sat on the bed. I remain standing in front of the door.

“What? Don’t you want love?” he asked smirking. His hands unbuttoning his shirt.

“I’m not a bitch to have a sex with you” I plainly said

“No one said that” he chuckled and stood walking towards me. My phone rang so I took it on my purse. He pinned me to the door before I answer it. We’re looking at each other’s eyes as if we’re talking using our minds. Then I felt his lips brushing on mine. I can’t help but to close my eyes and feel it when I saw how his eyes closed. There’s something about his kiss that’s different from the others. I responded slowly and my arms wrapped automatically on his neck while his hands ran towards my waist and pulled me closer to his warm body. Our kiss became passionate as he parted my lips and he entered his tongue. I was surprised when he played with my tongue and suck on it. His right hand went to my thigh and slowly feeling my pale skin there. I moaned when I felt little electric shock when I felt his warm hand against my skin. I can feel that he smiled during our kiss when he heard me. I came in to senses so I pushed his body away from me but he was too strong. But I still tried and I stopped responding to the kiss so he pulled away. Both of us are panting heavily after that very long kiss.

“That was incredible” he mumbled in between his breath as he caresses my cheeks.

“You’re blushing too much, honey” he must have noticed my red face. He teased my former pink but now red lips with his thumb. I looked away and removed my arms from him.

“If you really want to find love, live with me”

“Huh?!” I looked at him very surprised.

“Don’t worry, I just want to help you learn about your feelings. I noticed that you’re still immature” he chuckled after he said that. My blood boiled upon hearing that and made me really angry.

“Fine then!” I unexpectedly blurted out.

“Takaki Yuya desu. Yoroshiku” he held his hand and I took it for a handshake.

“Inoo Kei desu” I looked away

            And so after that, I decided to live with him on his condo unit. He told me that I don’t need to pay a rent, it was convenient for me because my monthly payment for my old place was really high even though I have high salary. I’ll just use this “living together” idea as convenience for me.  

 “You can use the room across mine to sleep on but if you’re lonely, you can sleep beside me” he said while smirking. I didn’t respond but I gave him a death glare. He just chuckled seeing my reaction. It’s true, I think I am so innocent when it comes to love. You can’t blame me, I spent my whole life studying my ass off just to fulfill my parents’ expectation.

“Now, now. Let me help you with that” he helped me carry my luggage and lead me to my room.

            I woke up in the morning with the smell of waffles. I got up with my eyes half open because the waffles hypnotized me. I went to the kitchen and saw Takaki preparing breakfast with a black tank top and board shorts. I gulped seeing his body. It’s my first time seeing a guy with his arms and collarbone fully expose. When he saw me, he put two cups on the table beside the waffles on plate.

“Oh, breakfast?” he asked while smiling. Then I look at myself, damn! I’m still on my pajamas! I ran back to my room and took a shower quickly and changed into my everyday clothes. I wore shorts and shirts at home by the way, unlike when I go outside. When I returned at the kitchen, he’s still not eaten anything.

“You waited for me?” I gained a nod with him reading a newspaper. I sat across him and took one waffle. I was about to sip on the cup when I notice it.

“Coffee?” I asked

“Yup, you don’t drink?”

“Don’t like the bitter taste” I was about to stand when he change our cups.

“Here, take mine” I looked at him then to the tea on the cup

“It’s okay, I drink both” he smiled at me and I just nod. Silence took place between us while eating. I noticed that he’s eating while reading the newspaper.

            He’s such a grown-up. Unlike me, so immature in the inside!

“By the way, my friend is coming in the afternoon” he suddenly spoke then placed the newspaper on the table and drinks his coffee.

“Do I have to stay on my room?”

“Haha. No! I want you to meet him” he laughed a little and looked at me with his elbows resting on the table while his both hand capturing his chin.

“For a date?”

“You’re too excited. I want you to know him first before going out with him but I guess dating on your first meeting isn’t bad” he answered still smiling. I got embarrassed with that.

            Wait, his friend? I thought he’ll teach me about love? Why bother his friend if he could just be the one I date with? What if, he has a girlfriend already? Nah! He wouldn’t let me live with him if he does. What if he’s gay? But when he kissed me that night, it doesn’t feel like that.

            He snapped a finger near my face so I came in to my senses again.

“You’re spacing out” he chuckled.

“Sorry” I pout and blushed. Then he coughed a little and left.

            I was cooking our lunch when someone rang the doorbell. I was about to go when I heard the door open.

“Oh, Inoo. This is my friend” he introduced me when I saw them at the living room. The guy stared at me from head to toe then smiled with his cute teeth showing off.

“Domo, Yaotome Hikaru desu” the guy introduced himself and held out his hand.

“Yoroshiku, Inoo Kei desu” I accepted his hand for a handshake.

“Ahm, I’ll just continue cooking for a while” I excused myself and left the two guys.

“Damn Yuya! She’s too hot! Where did you meet her?” Hikaru whisperly asked.

“In one of the clubs, but I’m telling you she’s different” Takaki answered

“In what way, perhaps?” Hikaru asked smirking

“She hasn’t got any boyfriend yet, so she’s still kinda immature”

“So my role is?”

“Go out with her and let’s see how she’ll deal with it”

“Why not do it yourself if you already managed to make her live with you?” Takaki glared at him.

“Okay. Okay. I’m not asking anymore” Hikaru just sighed and shook his head.

“Lunch is ready” I invited them and both of them nodded then followed me into the dining area. We were quiet when we start eating.

“You’re quite of a chef-level, Kei” Hikaru suddenly asked and I was surprised when he called my first name.

“Ah, arigatou” I shyly answered.

            And so we started going out, me and Hikaru. It’s like Takaki is my love adviser, I tell him everything about our dates. He just listened but not telling me anything to do. One night, I told him that Hikaru kissed me for the first time but it was just a peck.

“Just listen to what you are feeling towards him. If your body moves on its own and responded, it only means you’re developing feelings for him” that’s the very first advice he gave me.

            Summer started and Hikaru invited us to go to beach. Takaki brought a girl with him so it’s like a double date. Yeah, Hikaru and I are couples now but I don’t think the girl with Takaki is his girlfriend though. After settling our things on our room, we changed into swimming gears. Both of us girls wore our bikini while the guys wore summer shorts but I noticed Takaki wore a shirt. 

“The weather is good, ne?” Hikaru wrapped his arm on my waist while we’re sitting below the umbrella. I shivered a little feeling his hand on my bare skin. I just nod and leaned my head on his shoulder.

“Ah! Wait here, I’m gonna grab some icecream” he stood and left. I just smiled at him but I saw his wallet beside me.

“He left his wallet” so I stood and was about to follow Hikaru when I bumped in to someone.

“Ah, sumisasen” I bowed

“Wow, a hottie. Want to have fun with us?” the guy I bumped to asked while he grabs my wrist.

“Woah~ She’s too hot, men!” the other guy with him walked around me while staring at me.

“Sorry, but-“ Takaki suddenly arrived and grabbed my wrist away from the guy.

“Go away if you still care for your lives” Takaki threatened the two guys with a death glare. The two ran off immediately.

“Thanks for saving me” I thanked him but he took off his shirt and gave it to me.

“You should not show your body like that if you can’t defend yourself” then he left and went to the girl with him on one of the umbrellas. I looked at his shirt and wore it.

“Hikaru, you forgot this” I handed him his wallet after I saw him at the icecream stand.

“Ah, arigatou. Damn, I didn’t noticed I left it” He smiled but it faded when he saw me wearing Takaki’s shirt. He raised a brow.

“Ah, this. Takaki lend me this ‘coz I… I… ahm… kinda cold” I managed to find an explanation

“You don’t want icecream then?”

“No! It’s fine, I like icecream!” I grab one icecream from his hand and he smiled after that.

            When we went back to our resort room, Hikaru announced that he managed to get another room for both of us. Meaning, Hikaru and I would separate rooms with Takaki and his girlfriend.

“Come on, let’s transfer our things on our room” he grabbed my hand while I look at Takaki with a pleading look. Our room was just across Takaki’s room. Hikaru received a call so he went into the veranda. I sighed and took a shower first. I already changed inside the bathroom so when I went out, Hikaru came in from the door.

“Oh, they are waiting at the dining hall. I’ll just follow after taking a shower, okay?” he kissed my forehead and proceeded at the bathroom.

            After our dinner, I excused myself first and left them at the table because they are having fun talking. I went in to the terrace and find it empty because it’s midnight already. I feel the ocean breeze in to the air and breathe it smoothly.

“Being a loner, aren’t you?” Takaki suddenly appeared beside me.

“Am not!” I rolled my eyes but I heard him chuckle.

“So, how did it go with your girlfriend?” I asked him with a low voice.

“Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” he smiled and stared at the moon.

“I’m not sure if I can give myself to Hikaru yet. I mean…” I bit my lower lip

“Daijoubu. I told you, do what your heart feels” he faced me and I blinked at him nervously

“Sou da ne! But…” I smiled but his face got closer to mine. I can feel his breath into my face and he kissed me gently but my phone rang. I looked at it, it was Hikaru. Then Takaki walked away when I answered the call.

            When I returned to our room, Hikaru is talking on the phone again at the veranda.

“Hai, wakarimashita” he ended the call when he saw me walking towards him.

“Your boss again?” I asked him but he hugged me and kissed me.

“Jealous?” he smirked then I pushed him.

“In your dreams!” I laughed a little but then I felt his arms wrap on my waist as he hugged me from behind. I felt his lips lightly trailing kisses on my neck and I shivered.

“Hikaru…” I managed to mumble

“Hmm?” he playfully asked while his kisses went on my cheeks. I pulled over and faced him. I touched his cheek and stared at his eyes deeply. He did the same.

“Kei, you’re so beautiful. How can no one love you?”

“Because I always ignore them, that’s why” I giggled. He brushed his thumb on my lips.

“I love you” he whispered then leaned closer to kiss me. I responded for the very first time and I felt that he carried me towards the living room. He gently placed me in the long couch as our lips still lingered. His hands start to unbutton my top as his kiss starts to wander on my neck. I gasped when he sucked deeply on my neck. I closed my eyes but suddenly, Takaki’s face flashed into my mind. I pushed Hikaru away while he stared at me curiously.

“Is something matter?” he asked me while removing the locks on my face.

“Let’s go to sleep now, onegai?” I pleased him. He sighed before standing.

“Alright. Let’s go?” he held his hand and guided me towards the bedroom. We sleep together but nothing else happened.

            I woke up at 4am so I decided to take a walk on the shore. When I went back to the resort, I saw Takaki with a glass on his hand at the terrace of our floor. I was about to approach him when his girlfriend took his glass and drink on it then kissed him. I froze and ran inside our room. Tears start to flow from my eyes and I can’t understand myself anymore.

            Why do I feel hurt seeing that? It’s normal since they’re lovers but I feel so hurt when I saw them. I like Hikaru but why am I so affected when it comes to Takaki?

            When I managed to pull myself together, I walked back to my bedroom and sleep alone there.

            Takaki noticed on our way back to his place that I was quiet. So after his girlfriend and Hikaru left he followed me to my room. He locked the door behind him and I gulped when I see his serious face.

“What?” I raised a brow

“You’re not telling me something” he’s taking steps towards me and I stumbled when the back of my knee bumped into my bed and caused me to sit. I just look away.

“Tell me, did something happen between you and Hikaru?!” he asked angrily while shaking me with his hands on my shoulder.

“Why? Why do you need to know?!” I can’t stop my feelings anymore so I got mad when he asked me. He froze and looked away.

“Because… because I… Forget it” he shook his head and let go of me.

“Tomorrow, I’m leaving. Besides, your girlfriend doesn’t like it with me living here” after hearing that, he just left silently. When the door closed, I released a deep sigh.

            What are you saying Inoo Kei??! Why did you tell him that? Argh! Now, look at what you’ve done! You cannot turn back of what you just said. Well, I guess it’s the end for us now. Wait… Us? Is there really US from the beginning? Wait. Am I falling in love with Takaki Yuya? Wake up, Kei! Or it will be over if you surrender now!

            I just decided that it will be better if I get far from Takaki so that I can focus on Hikaru more. I prepared my things for tomorrow.

            After taking a bath and changed into white blouse and mini-skirt, I took my luggage in the living room. I knocked on Takaki’s room nervously. He opened it and let me in, I sat on his bed quietly. He’s wearing a robe, I think he just finished taking a shower.

“So, you’re leaving now?” he plainly asked while drying his hair with a towel. I looked down to my lap and nodded.

“Um! I guess, we’re complete strangers again after this-” in a swift movement, he pinned me to his bed while his hands holding my wrists.

“What are you doing?!” I tried to push him but he’s too strong. He looked straight into my eyes as a tear fall from my eye.

“You gave yourself easily to Hikaru but why are you crying now?! Damn it, Kei!” he’s really mad about that but he’s misunderstanding everything. He also called my first name for the first time.

“What are you saying? Ah!” he started kissing me on my neck as he unbuttons my blouse.

“Yuya, stop!!!” I shout and he stopped.

“How come you gave yourself to Hikaru when I’m the one you love?”  that’s it, I can’t stop my tears anymore.

“How can you say that?” I sobbed.

“When I kissed you that night, I can feel it in your lips”

“Still, you don’t have anything to do with me”

“Of course I have!”

“What about your girlfriend? I saw you two kissed at the terrace and you can’t deny that!”

“You saw us?” his voice became softer this time. I nod and looked away.

“I was going crazy knowing you’ll sleep with Hikaru, and she tried to comfort me-“

“That’s it! I had enough!” I cut his words and managed to push him. He falls to my side as I sat and fixed my blouse.

“You’re jealous” he mumbled. I stop buttoning my blouse and wiped my tears.

“So what if I’m-“ he cut my words as he kissed me hungrily. I responded the same way he does and he pushed me down to bed again. He pulled away after the long fight of kiss. We were both panting and I can feel my face so hot from blushing.

“I love you, Kei. And I’m happy to know you’re jealous” he said between his breathing.

“I… think I’m falling in love with you. You’re so baka, Yuya!” I poke his cheek but he catch my hand. He kissed it and placed it on his chest.

“You don’t know how crazy I am when you and Hikaru separate rooms with us. I just can’t imagine you with him that night. I-“ I place my finger on his lips.

“You’re jealous” I mimicked him and smiled. He took my hand and kissed me again. This time, it was sweet and passionate. I slowly responded to his kiss but when he inserts his tongue, I grip on his arm tightly. The kiss is amazing, he explored my mouth and suck on my tongue. It’s like my head is spinning while he continues to kiss me. He started trailing kisses towards my neck and sometimes sucks on a part that leaves some hickeys.

“Hmm…” I moaned but he suddenly stopped and looked at me.

“So nothing happened between you and Hikaru yet?” he asked seriously. I shook my head and smiled at him.

“This is my first time” I whispered to his ears then he smiled.

“Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle” he answered then kissed me again.

            His hands finished unbuttoning my blouse then slowly took off my skirt. I shivered when he caress my thighs with his left hand while his right hand unhooked my brassiere. He slowly removed the strap while leaving kisses from my neck to my shoulder. He captured my right breast with his mouth immediately when it was exposed. I grip on his hair as he devours my nipples. He keeps on touching my legs and thighs and spread it when his kisses went to my stomach.

“Ah! N-o fair!” I mumbled so he looked curiously and sat above me. I sat up and untied his robe. He just stared at me while I took off his robe from him. I can feel my hands trembling as I touched his bare chest. I looked at him and wrap my arms on his neck as I kiss him. I started kissing him to his neck down to his chest. I heard him moan when I suck on his nipple.

“Sorry, but I’ll do the honors today” he said then crawled on top of me. He continued kissing my stomach as he removes my last underwear. He kissed towards my thigh up to my knee and left a mark there.

“I’m going inside, tell me if it hurts and I’ll stop” he whispered to my ear and kissed me again. I love his kisses but not too long, I felt ache inside me. He slowly pushed in while kissing me gently. I was holding my breath until he got fully inside me.

“Are you okay?” he asked me, he’s panting too.

“Hmm… It’s fine, you can move now” I assured him so he did. He slowly thrust in and I can’t stop moaning because of that. The aching I suffer but sensation took over after a few thrusts. I grabbed on the sheets tightly as the thrust became faster.

“Y-uya!” I called out his name when I felt him came inside me.

“Kei! I love you…” he mumbled then pulled out and lay beside me breathing heavily.

“I’m not a virgin anymore…” I mumbled.

“Are you not happy doing it with me?” I smiled when he asked that.

“Yappari, you want Hikaru to do it then?” he pinned me to the bed again.

“No, baka! I’m just happy I gave myself to the one I really love” I poked his cheeks a few times when he didn’t get what I said. He just blink.

“You mean, you love me too?”

“Of course! I wouldn’t let you rape me if I don’t” I giggled

“How can you call that rape when you’re willing?”

“Who says I was willing?”

“Then why did you take off my robe? Is that how a victim acts? And you didn’t even protested”

“Fine! Fine!”

“You little brat!” he pinched my nose.

“So, how about my luggage? It’s in the living room already, I need to-“ he cut me with his kiss.

“We can put it back later. We still have to know each other more now” Yuya started kissing my neck again

“But I know you already~” I pouted

“But I still need to explore this goddess body of yours to know you better” he smirked.

            The next day, we both told Hikaru about us and understand it. The truth is Hikaru has a new girlfriend already that he met at the beach. We are now driving our way back to our place. I wore a black shorts and sleeveless floral parka that day. I noticed that Yuya would steal a glance on my crossed-leg during stoplights.

“You’re staring too much” I teased him when he parked the car at the basement.

“Can’t help it. You’re too hot to be ignored” he placed his palm on my one leg.

“Oh~?” I smirked.

“Wanna try doing it here?” he also smirked as he slowly unzipped my parka.

“That’s a no” I zipped it again and walk out from the car. He quickly followed and put his arm around my waist as we go up to his place. I reached for my room and plopped myself into the bed.

“Haah~ That’s so tiring~” I sighed as I face my pillow. Then I felt a hand slowly tracing down my legs.

“I’m starting to hate seeing you with this on public place” he said so I looked behind to see him

“You don’t like me wearing short outfits?” I raised a brow

“It’s because, guys are stripping you with their stares. Don’t you notice that?” he lay above me and hugged me from behind.

“Ah… that’s why they stare like that. Wait, don’t tell me you also do that?” I smilingly asked. His hands start to travel into my body. He inserted his hands inside my parka and traced the shape of my body.

“Hmm… I’m the only one who can see and touch your body. Not even Hikaru…” he softly bit my right ear.

“Mou~ We’re over, right?” I got up and sat on his stomach.

“Right” he smiled contently.

~ owari ~

A/N: This is my first NC-17 fic? But… but… it’s still not a completely smut, deshou? Maa, it’s a love making scene so it’s fine I think…^_^