Melancholy of Inoo Kei (One-Shot)

[keiyuki_22]

Title: Melancholy of Inoo Kei

Author: ficreader_02

Rating: G

Genre: Angst

Summary: The feelings of Inoo Kei.

Warning: Get your tissues!

I can still remember the day of my first step in jimusho, I met Kota because we’re both going to the audition. They never told us that we passed or not. After a few months, they called our house and instructed me to start being a Johnny’s Junior. When I arrived at the rehearsal room the next day, I already saw Yabu practicing with two taller boys. I thought Ah, he must have been called the day after our audition. Yappari, he has great voice  and dance talent. At first, I didn’t felt jealous towards him but as a new show was produced for him [Ya-Ya-Yah] and 4 other boys, I started to feel insecure of myself. A boy from Sendai joined their group the week of his audition and already holds a mic to sing in the television. Sugoi na! He must have been as talented as Yabu to be in the show! At the first episode he was just a back-up singer of the five. The time came when the 5 boys became only 4 and the other 2 boys were replaced. So Ya-Ya-Yah was now composed of Yabu, Hikaru, Taiyou and Shoon.

            I was grouped into a temporary unit called “JJ Express” together with Daiki, Takaki, Hashimoto, Tamamori, Yuto and others and they made me the leader. We started rehearsing for our performance on that show and bit by bit, some of us were joined in the segments like games and interviews. I started to gain my confidence again so every performances, I did my best in singing and dancing.

            In the second half of 2007, a group was formed called Hey!Say!7, composed of Daiki, Takaki, Yamada, Chinen and Yuto. They released a single and became volleyball supporters. Although I was also put in a temporary unit called Kitty GYM, to support volleyball team. Then, Johnny’s called for an ultimate audition among juniors that will join the original Hey!Say!7 because it will be expanded into 10 members that will debut in October that year. I grabbed the chance and prepared totally for that audition. I tried my best and luckily, I was chosen as one of the members.

            We debuted as Hey!Say!JUMP and having a big group, they divided us into two subgroups. Hey!Say!BEST was composed of 5 oldest members including Yabu, Hikaru, Takaki, Daiki and me. Hey!Say!7 was the youngest 5 composed of Yamada, Yuto, Chinen, Keito and Ryutaro. On our very first song and single, Ultra Music Power, I was happy to sing with them and have parts. But as the number of singles we released, the less I have my own lines in the song. I also noticed during our concerts that Yamada has the majority of fans. When we walked around the venue, I intentionally look for my uchiwa but sad to say, I only saw a few of them.

            I started to feel conscious towards myself. I would feel nervous whenever I walked into the concert venue, scared that there will be no fans happy to see me. I told myself that I’ll bring up the real me. My randomness caught the fans’ attention and they’ll laugh whenever I say something random during MC parts or interviews.  I was happy that Hey!Say!JUMP fans recognized me as the random Inoo Kei. I also decided to go to university and another nickname was given to me: Meiji boy/ Uni boy.

2011 came but I noticed in our PVs that I was hardly shown, even the lines of the song. During our Summary concert, my schedule was really tight. I’ll do my homeworks during our rehearsal breaks and review for exams in between Summary concerts. I can only show a forced smile to the audience, after all, they will never notice. The fans have their eyes on other members so  even in the dance, when I feel kinda tired, my dance moves lack energy. I can only smile truly when Hikaru talked to me secretly during the Summary.      

Now that I’m in fourth year college, I’ll focused myself more in my studies. I’ll excuse myself  to other interviews and guestings of Hey!Say!JUMP except concerts. I also cut my hair short because of depression too, I once said in a magazine interview that I’ll dye my hair when I get heartbroken, this time, I’ll cut my hair when I feel so much depression.

I don’t know until when I can hope for my own limelight, presently, I am either a back-up dancer of the group or the shadow. But I still hope for changes. When Ryutaro was removed from the group I thought Poor kid, unable to suppress his depression, he brings himself into the depths of bad habits. I know how he felt, having to back dance for the main singers, having no own lines in the songs. It’s just too depressing for being proclaimed as a member of Hey!Say!JUMP.

In the end, I just hope and wish that even having a few fans, they’ll continue to support me as the member of Hey!Say!JUMP.

A/N: This came up to me after reading magazine interviews and concert reports. I always cried when I think about how Inoo carry his depression. On the magazine interviews, you can notice how Inoo felt and you can read between his lines when he pretended to joke around. So, please don’t kill me, ok? I am a solid Inoo Kei fan, he’s my ichiban. I just want to tell you how I understand and see the grudge that is within Inoo Kei. This is just my opinion after all. Thanks for reading then!

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Comments

[keixseth.livejournal.com]

OMG! I like this, It looks like my thought have been written in words, I mean my thoughts about Inoo, especially on the song parts and back-up dance parts, I notice it all starting from Mayonaka I think that his exposure on the camera lessen, even in some performances on some shows his exposure lessen, I can only see him beside the one who've been on the camera... in their PV too, whenever the camera passes on him, I really go "Kyaaa" and hoping some more.

I think he's not that depress as you described, he choose that path of being a University student and a JUMP member and I know he's happy, if he's not that happy he can quit anytime he wants, he can focus on being a JUMP member and even had his drama, but no he didn't he choose both path. so being as fans we can support him on that. :)

I don't know how to express more, but I'll support him no matter what, I don't care if Yamada is always on the center, but I am an avid Inoo fan. hehe..

[rinrin-qq.livejournal.com]

every JUMP's fans noticed that the focus mostly on Yama-chan, it irritates me too although I love him so much, because I love all of them, and Inoo-chan is my ichiban along with Yama-chan :)

I don't know why I felt like this, but I think Inoo-chan is confident with himself, he's pretty anyway XD
my image of him is so kind and caring and always brighten the mood, I can't imagine him, and other JUMP's member, as someone who got jealous over other's popularity. JUMP's bond is so great in my eyes :)

for me, he's so special because he can do both university and entertainment industry. he's special just the way he is. I love his laughing, it's like a melody in my ears, his fingers, his randomness, just everything, I think he still has a lot of fans althought it can't be compared with Yama-chan. but I think everyone noticed him, as Inoo-chan, JUMP's sweet heart :)

[keichii24.livejournal.com]

Make Johnny read this! Then he'll have Kei his break.

I was looking for him at the SD PV. They showed him, once! And it was when they had their hands for the line. Pfft. Johnny and his favoritism.

I'm rooting for Kei and will flail for him in the Future.

I love you for this <3

[iamusicklover.livejournal.com]

OHMYGOSH. I totally know what you meant. I also realized this few years ago. This should be shown to Johnny-san. So that he would realized it.
Thanks for this :)

[jamsy-usa.livejournal.com]

I've been his fan from the start and I think he's a great person. only few people can joggle both studies and work as an idol. now that he's in 4th yr. i wish i could see more of him in the future. i wish to see him in person, to see him perform on that stage giving his smile to all his fans. For me Inoo is one of the person I look up, to whatever path he will choose, let's continue supporting him and who know maybe he'll have his own movie or make our own houses :)

[cerberusjump27.livejournal.com]

I can understand why Kei doesn't get too much attention since he entered University. He always state in his interviews that he wants to graduate on time. But yeah, Johnny should give him, Keito and Ryuu a proper screen time and solo lines. Its just so frustrating that ever since Mayonaka came, the attention went to the Scrap Teacher gang.
Maybe once he finish his schooling, the agency might give him his break unless Kei's going to enter Graduate school, since he is an Architecture student.

your message attack me !!

[saiwaroon sinthuwanon (from livejournal.com)]

I'm the new fan of Kei, after HSJ concert in HK, I who never paid attention to any boyband but need to go with my friend who's crazy of HSJ (We're Thai)

At first i saw their performance on stage, i just impress in nice light and how many boys fly and sing and their dancing are also great. My friend point to a boy on stage and told me "this is my most favourite boy in this band" and i just look after her point and said "ok la, he looks nice" and as remember i didn't see his face again on stage, seem like he disappear from concert (but actually he still alive there!)

But don't know why after come back to Thailand, 2 weeks pass i begin to feel special with Kei's pic. His face is perfect and looks like Japanese animate, it can attract me and begin to look for video and translation about his interview, and also notice that summary dome 2011 concert, we can see him just a few time, maybe longer than thunder light about 2 sec :P

I think the reason i become to be big fan of him (i also like Chinen but not same with Kei) moreover than his look - great face and nice body (he can dress everything and make it look well), his manner and his joke are my typical, when he answer anything we can't predict how crazy it will goes.

And one important reason would be i feel unfair that he always be no airtime although he dances hard (i forgot to tell that i like his dancing style, it looks sweet but strong, maybe becoz how he move his nice hand) so any video or news about him look valuable for new big fan like me :P

Before i found your message, i just finished watching Jump Party#2 which JUMP play japanese card for New Year Celebretion, Kei showed how he care Yuya who don't have any point in that game by freeze his hand over the card and look at Yuya to let him take that card but finally Keito took it instead of Yuya, Kei said he just concern Yuya's feeling coz he still have Zero point. This moment make me like him much more 30% (from 170) ie ie

your message attack me !!

[saiwaroon sinthuwanon (from livejournal.com)]

I also think same with your message but i try to think in good way that he choose this way to reduce his role in HSJ but again when look at him who spend many year with singing and dance, he would feel sad deeply to just be in shadow on stage, When i see other members run around and waive to audience but Kei rarely do that, i'm not sure if he don't do it or if producer cut his time from video or maybe he feel like this stage is not for him (few sad if it's the last assumption) Anyway i always see him happy among other members, so i think it would be not so bad situation, hope he can acknowledge our care to him (don't know how, just hope that)

Haha~

[ficreader-02.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to know your opinion on this one and btw, Welcome to Inoo Kei fandomness...

But now, his talk on Magazine interviews cleared my mind that he's fine to whatever he is doing now and I'll keep supporting until I die... And moreover, I want to be a very proud fan once he graduate on college! So please, let's continue adoring him and support him in every steps of his life...

Re: Haha~

[saiwaroon sinthuwanon (from livejournal.com)]

Since i never been in love with any singer or actor long time, so i hope Kei and HSJ will be first one who can pull my attention long time like i see many fan still love SMAP now.

BTW, what magazine that you mentioned? since i can't read japanese so i only be able to wait translation from some blog. HSJ song makes me interested in japanese language but it's too late for me to study new language now.

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[keekaikung.livejournal.com]

Hi, do u still like Inoo chan? I met him here in bangkok last week and want to share with you.

Re: Haha~

[ficreader-02.livejournal.com]

Yup! Yup! I'm in love w/ Kei so much!

So how was he? Still handsome? Tell me please! Onegai~

Re: Haha~

[keekaikung.livejournal.com]

hi,
not sure if u know about that HSJ visit Thialnd last week, they have fan meeting at Parc Paragon, Bangkok

but before that day, they went to take PV and CM in Pattaya, me and my friend went there to see them (as u know it's hardly possible to have this chance with japanese idol)

I met him on private day (after finish shooting)

inoo chan in real is not different from magazine or TV, his face is so pretty, cute, can say that i never found any cute man like him and he's very skinny and walk like no energy :P

but few sad that he's very quiet with fan, too quiet.. maybe becoz he's only one in HSJ that i concentrate so when he don't smile or have any reaction with fan, it can attack my expectation.

Since i imagine he would be enjoy to see fan, I just expect him to waive hand and little smile i would be happy enough.

but on the day of Fan meeting, he's so nice and not quiet, can say that he has good responsibility on stage, maybe he don't like to meet fan in private day.

Just want to share with someone who really like him, anyway i still like to save his pic, he still most beautiful man for me.

Re: Haha~

[ficreader-02.livejournal.com]

REALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????!!!

You're so lucky!

I envy you so much!

Re: Haha~

[ficreader-02.livejournal.com]

and how did you guys know they will be go to Thailand?

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[keekaikung.livejournal.com]

I'm thai and live in Thailand, so when they annouched that they'll vist here on March 3, I would wait to see him.

[nikenyk.livejournal.com]

Ah I feel and think about it too...
Honestly I feel sad whenever I watch their performances because Inoo always has a very very little part on the performances, unlike the others.
He may not have an excellent voice, but he's a good pianist, even if not a solo sing, I hope there will be more duet, Inoo plays the piano, and whoever has the great voice sings. But I like it beyter if Inoo sings too xD

I don't really mind if Inoo doesnt appear on screen as much as the other members, living as an architecture student and as an idol must be a very hard and tiring life, I hope he got enough rest, and stay healthy~

Let's support Inoo together! >.<

[alienjeru.livejournal.com]

I just wanna tell you how, I thought about this too.. but on my part, I thought of how Ryutaro felt instead of Kei. It was almost as similar as this. And now that I think about it, I can't help but feel that this is what Kei and Keito feel right now, being pushed at the back as if they're not really members of the group. I wished Kei would have more confidence though, if this what he currently feels. I mean, when Ryu left lots of Ryu fans threw harsh comments at other members whenever they sing Ryu's (short) parts. And to tell you the truth, I know lots of Kei Inoo fans! So I hope he won't be too depressed >_< Good luck to our Meiji boy ♥ (and congrats to him XD)Hopefully, he'll get more attention now that he finally graduated from uni :)