Melancholy of Inoo Kei (One-Shot)

[keiyuki_22]

Title: Melancholy of Inoo Kei

Author: ficreader_02

Rating: G

Genre: Angst

Summary: The feelings of Inoo Kei.

Warning: Get your tissues!

I can still remember the day of my first step in jimusho, I met Kota because we’re both going to the audition. They never told us that we passed or not. After a few months, they called our house and instructed me to start being a Johnny’s Junior. When I arrived at the rehearsal room the next day, I already saw Yabu practicing with two taller boys. I thought Ah, he must have been called the day after our audition. Yappari, he has great voice  and dance talent. At first, I didn’t felt jealous towards him but as a new show was produced for him [Ya-Ya-Yah] and 4 other boys, I started to feel insecure of myself. A boy from Sendai joined their group the week of his audition and already holds a mic to sing in the television. Sugoi na! He must have been as talented as Yabu to be in the show! At the first episode he was just a back-up singer of the five. The time came when the 5 boys became only 4 and the other 2 boys were replaced. So Ya-Ya-Yah was now composed of Yabu, Hikaru, Taiyou and Shoon.

            I was grouped into a temporary unit called “JJ Express” together with Daiki, Takaki, Hashimoto, Tamamori, Yuto and others and they made me the leader. We started rehearsing for our performance on that show and bit by bit, some of us were joined in the segments like games and interviews. I started to gain my confidence again so every performances, I did my best in singing and dancing.

            In the second half of 2007, a group was formed called Hey!Say!7, composed of Daiki, Takaki, Yamada, Chinen and Yuto. They released a single and became volleyball supporters. Although I was also put in a temporary unit called Kitty GYM, to support volleyball team. Then, Johnny’s called for an ultimate audition among juniors that will join the original Hey!Say!7 because it will be expanded into 10 members that will debut in October that year. I grabbed the chance and prepared totally for that audition. I tried my best and luckily, I was chosen as one of the members.

            We debuted as Hey!Say!JUMP and having a big group, they divided us into two subgroups. Hey!Say!BEST was composed of 5 oldest members including Yabu, Hikaru, Takaki, Daiki and me. Hey!Say!7 was the youngest 5 composed of Yamada, Yuto, Chinen, Keito and Ryutaro. On our very first song and single, Ultra Music Power, I was happy to sing with them and have parts. But as the number of singles we released, the less I have my own lines in the song. I also noticed during our concerts that Yamada has the majority of fans. When we walked around the venue, I intentionally look for my uchiwa but sad to say, I only saw a few of them.

            I started to feel conscious towards myself. I would feel nervous whenever I walked into the concert venue, scared that there will be no fans happy to see me. I told myself that I’ll bring up the real me. My randomness caught the fans’ attention and they’ll laugh whenever I say something random during MC parts or interviews.  I was happy that Hey!Say!JUMP fans recognized me as the random Inoo Kei. I also decided to go to university and another nickname was given to me: Meiji boy/ Uni boy.

2011 came but I noticed in our PVs that I was hardly shown, even the lines of the song. During our Summary concert, my schedule was really tight. I’ll do my homeworks during our rehearsal breaks and review for exams in between Summary concerts. I can only show a forced smile to the audience, after all, they will never notice. The fans have their eyes on other members so  even in the dance, when I feel kinda tired, my dance moves lack energy. I can only smile truly when Hikaru talked to me secretly during the Summary.      

Now that I’m in fourth year college, I’ll focused myself more in my studies. I’ll excuse myself  to other interviews and guestings of Hey!Say!JUMP except concerts. I also cut my hair short because of depression too, I once said in a magazine interview that I’ll dye my hair when I get heartbroken, this time, I’ll cut my hair when I feel so much depression.

I don’t know until when I can hope for my own limelight, presently, I am either a back-up dancer of the group or the shadow. But I still hope for changes. When Ryutaro was removed from the group I thought Poor kid, unable to suppress his depression, he brings himself into the depths of bad habits. I know how he felt, having to back dance for the main singers, having no own lines in the songs. It’s just too depressing for being proclaimed as a member of Hey!Say!JUMP.

In the end, I just hope and wish that even having a few fans, they’ll continue to support me as the member of Hey!Say!JUMP.

A/N: This came up to me after reading magazine interviews and concert reports. I always cried when I think about how Inoo carry his depression. On the magazine interviews, you can notice how Inoo felt and you can read between his lines when he pretended to joke around. So, please don’t kill me, ok? I am a solid Inoo Kei fan, he’s my ichiban. I just want to tell you how I understand and see the grudge that is within Inoo Kei. This is just my opinion after all. Thanks for reading then!

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[saiwaroon sinthuwanon (from livejournal.com)]

I'm the new fan of Kei, after HSJ concert in HK, I who never paid attention to any boyband but need to go with my friend who's crazy of HSJ (We're Thai)

At first i saw their performance on stage, i just impress in nice light and how many boys fly and sing and their dancing are also great. My friend point to a boy on stage and told me "this is my most favourite boy in this band" and i just look after her point and said "ok la, he looks nice" and as remember i didn't see his face again on stage, seem like he disappear from concert (but actually he still alive there!)

But don't know why after come back to Thailand, 2 weeks pass i begin to feel special with Kei's pic. His face is perfect and looks like Japanese animate, it can attract me and begin to look for video and translation about his interview, and also notice that summary dome 2011 concert, we can see him just a few time, maybe longer than thunder light about 2 sec :P

I think the reason i become to be big fan of him (i also like Chinen but not same with Kei) moreover than his look - great face and nice body (he can dress everything and make it look well), his manner and his joke are my typical, when he answer anything we can't predict how crazy it will goes.

And one important reason would be i feel unfair that he always be no airtime although he dances hard (i forgot to tell that i like his dancing style, it looks sweet but strong, maybe becoz how he move his nice hand) so any video or news about him look valuable for new big fan like me :P

Before i found your message, i just finished watching Jump Party#2 which JUMP play japanese card for New Year Celebretion, Kei showed how he care Yuya who don't have any point in that game by freeze his hand over the card and look at Yuya to let him take that card but finally Keito took it instead of Yuya, Kei said he just concern Yuya's feeling coz he still have Zero point. This moment make me like him much more 30% (from 170) ie ie